I’ve always had the mentality and even said “I can do anything – just show me how”.
There is no arrogance in this line, its simply fact - show me what to do and I will be able to do it.
This is my third foray into the “blog”, which is to assist my head in not overloading and to show Ann I can do it.
And I really need to conquer the first one this week.
It’s weird when you feel you are the flavour of the month. Everything seems really good at work and then the next minute, for no reason, the shine just seems to wear off. And very quickly.
That’s not to say I don’t enjoy my current employment, but I do feel now is the time for “make or break” and I seem to be the only one that feels this way.
So the question needs to be asked – is it me?
Well of course it bloody well is!
Having worked in promotions, marketing and events over the past nine years where hosting a raffle with meat trays is as exciting as producing and executing a marketing campaign, I knew I would get to this point.
My old boss Deb at the events company even went as far to say she “wouldn’t have seen me doing that!”
I was worried too, as I had these big dreams of moving here, working at the BBC and furthering my knowledge so I wasn’t cornered into one area of marketing.
Knowing every premise and being able to tailor it to any industry is what I would like to do – its creativity after all!
Maybe Deb was right. At present, I can’t stop these thoughts of boredom, then panic and then happiness that seem to change quicker than the minute hand on a clock.
But this is not something new that I am feeling, I have been this way most of my life. I stop after a while for no reason and re-evaluate where I am headed, then somehow shutdown all the good thoughts and feel trapped.
And whilst this is happening to me, I think of a piece of advice once given and never forgotten………
“If you don’t like the journey, get off the bus”
This “journey” is actually a day trip in a big, long, fantastic 2 year holiday that Mark and I decided to take. Very wise words.
So shouldn’t I just go on these day trips and enjoy the larger adventure?
The answer is yes. Typing these things out shows me there is no worry in thoughts.
Rationally, I am able to sway myself into seeing what the priorities really are.
The power of the mind is horrendously delicious – isn’t it?